I can't walk without being in pain. Sunday was my rest day and I ended up going to the beach with my parents. It was a beautiful sunny day, so I decided to break out the only pair of shorts that fit me. Bad idea. We decided to go for a long walk up the beach and back and because I am overweight, my thighs rubbed together in this terrible fit of friction. At the end of our walk my inner thighs were not just red, I actually had some skin shearing going on. Now it's been a day or so and the sores have scabbed over (I know, disgusting.) but I am still in a lot of pain when I walk. So, I've decided to forgo the treadmill for a few days. I hate doing that, but it's really not an excuse. I will still lift weights and go to the gym.
Otherwise I haven't been very good with my diet over the past few days. When we went to the beach I knew I had to take some snack food with me and I ended up finding these cute little mini peanut butter cups at Bulk Barrel. I also caved for some York peppermint patties. Yum! Well, the peanut butter cups were gone before we even left for the beach. While there, I ate the peppermint patties, some popcorn, and a lot of salted pistachios. After the beach my parents took me to one of our favourite restaurants for dinner and I had a Caesar salad with grilled chicken on top. Yes, the salad was a good option to choose, but it was enormous! I had to take about half of it home in a take-out container. Yesterday, I had a sugar craving so bad and I did one of the worst things I have done in a while... and I'm ashamed of it. I went to the grocery store and got a McCain Deep and Delicious cake... and I might have eaten more than half in one sitting. It was bad, Very bad. This morning the scale says 215 lbs again and I feel defeated.
There is some good news though. I went to see my psychiatrist yesterday and he is taking me off the medication that causes weight gain by slowing my metabolism. He says that I have gained so much weight after being put on the medication it has now become a health risk. In fact I'm being taken off both of the medications I am on and am being given a mood stabilizer instead. I hate feeling like a guinea pig in the medication game, but at least it might not be as difficult to lose weight now.
I know I have to get back on the horse in regards to food, and I hate skipping time or exercises at the gym. I just want to be able to do my full workout. I definitely have motivation though. And no more impulsive cake eating!
Otherwise I haven't been very good with my diet over the past few days. When we went to the beach I knew I had to take some snack food with me and I ended up finding these cute little mini peanut butter cups at Bulk Barrel. I also caved for some York peppermint patties. Yum! Well, the peanut butter cups were gone before we even left for the beach. While there, I ate the peppermint patties, some popcorn, and a lot of salted pistachios. After the beach my parents took me to one of our favourite restaurants for dinner and I had a Caesar salad with grilled chicken on top. Yes, the salad was a good option to choose, but it was enormous! I had to take about half of it home in a take-out container. Yesterday, I had a sugar craving so bad and I did one of the worst things I have done in a while... and I'm ashamed of it. I went to the grocery store and got a McCain Deep and Delicious cake... and I might have eaten more than half in one sitting. It was bad, Very bad. This morning the scale says 215 lbs again and I feel defeated.
There is some good news though. I went to see my psychiatrist yesterday and he is taking me off the medication that causes weight gain by slowing my metabolism. He says that I have gained so much weight after being put on the medication it has now become a health risk. In fact I'm being taken off both of the medications I am on and am being given a mood stabilizer instead. I hate feeling like a guinea pig in the medication game, but at least it might not be as difficult to lose weight now.
I know I have to get back on the horse in regards to food, and I hate skipping time or exercises at the gym. I just want to be able to do my full workout. I definitely have motivation though. And no more impulsive cake eating!